…thoughts minus the ink…

He used to see her passed the corner oblivious of his existence, because she walks so fast that everyone is just a passing mirage.

He was there in the corner waiting for her to pass by. He knows her every move. He knows her so well…so well that nothing is hidden.

She walked so fast that she stumbled, fell and hurt herself, but he was there with his strong arms to help her get back on her feet again.

She took his hand and looked at his face and realized she had seen him before. She looked at him for a long time, grateful for his presence.

She finally thanked him for his help, smiled and slowly walked away. She walked ever so slowly ‘coz this time she knows she really walks fast.

He just looked at her a bit stunned, shocked by how near she had been to him. He looked and he kept on looking.

She disappeared round the bend and he suddenly realized how stupid he looked so he ran after her hoping to catch her and talk to her.

He stood in the corner head bent, eyes cast down because he realized it was too late. She is gone…

Too late to ever see her again…

Too late to ever be by her side as she wanted it to be…

Now, it was all too late…

He waited so long for her…

She doesn’t even know he existed…

She stood in front of the room clutching in her sweaty hands a folder.  She dreaded this…she wondered if she could even finish her speech.  She asked herself a couple of nights ago how can she “summarize” a person’s existence in a 3-min. speech.  She knows for a fact that she has to do this…and so she clears her throat…

“Today, I mourn the passing of one person.  A person who is common yet so special in his own way.  A person who wore different hats and played different roles…a person who has been a lot of things to me.

He’s someone I’ve shared my life with…someone who literally knew me inside out.  Someone who saw my ups and downs - my unguarded moments.  Someone who understood how I think and knew how I feel without me saying it.

He’s someone I could spend the whole day with and not notice the time. Someone I can show my true self to and not judge me for the flawed being that I am.

Sure, he had faults of his own but that doesn’t change my opinion of him.  He definitely is a special person to me.

Yet today, I mourn…

Not for the person I fought like hell for…

Not for the years of friendship put to waste…

Not for the hopes and dreams left unfulfilled…

Not for the times we lost rushing through life…

Not for the words left unspoken…

These things are not important anymore.

I mourn for him…for losing the freedom to correct his mistakes, decide for himself, and stand up for what he believes in.

I mourn for myself…for hoping until the last minute to see him become a person I hope he would be.  Someone who is able to make sound decisions and choices.  Someone who knows what he wants and aligns his desires with God.  Someone who chooses to be right with God even if it he gets ridiculed by man.  I mourn for losing the chance to see him settled, successful and happy.

And lastly, I mourn for the people around him…those who have judged and treated him unfairly.  Those who were too busy to show they care.  Those who have imposed their will on him and left him hanging.  Those who said they “cared” and yet pretended not to see his confusion and struggles.  They missed the chance of impacting his life in a much more deeper and positive way.  They let go of an opportunity to help you become a better person than you are now.

For the past days I cried…for the lost chances, for the passed up opportunities…but today, I will stop.  Today, I let you go…as much as I wanted you to stay, the truth remains, you are no longer existent in my life.”

With that, she closed her folder, looked up and walked out of the room.

LESSONS IN LIFE

By Regina Brett The Plain Dealer, Cleveland, Ohio

To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me. It is the most-requested column I’ve ever written. My odometer rolls over to 50 this week, so here’s an update:
 
1. Life isn’t fair, but it’s still good.
 
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
 
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
 
4. Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
 
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
 
6. You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

7. Cry with someone. It’s more healing than crying alone.
 
8. It’s OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
 
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
 
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
 
11. Make peace with your past so it won’t screw up the present.
 
12. It’s OK to let your children see you cry.
 
13. Don’t compare your life to others’. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
 
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn’t be in it.
 
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don’t worry; God never blinks.
 
16. Life is too short for long pity parties. Get busy living, or get busy dying.
 
17. You can get through anything if you stay put in today.
 
18. A writer writes. If you want to be a writer, write.
 
19. It’s never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
 
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don’t take no for an answer.
 
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don’t save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
 
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
 
23. Be eccentric now. Don’t wait for old age to wear purple.
 
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
 
25. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.

26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: "In five years, will this matter?"

27. Always choose life.
 
28. Forgive everyone everything.
 
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
 
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
 
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

32. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will.  Stay in touch.
 
33. Believe in miracles.
 
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn’t do.

35. Whatever doesn’t kill you really does make you stronger.
 
36. Growing old beats the alternative — dying young.
 
37. Your children get only one childhood. Make it memorable.
 
38. Read the Psalms. They cover every human emotion.
 
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
 
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else’s, we’d grab ours back.
 
41. Don’t audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
 
42. Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful.
 
43. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
 
44. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
 
45. The best is yet to come.
 
46. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
 
47. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
 
48. If you don’t ask, you don’t get.
 
49. Yield.
 
50. Life isn’t tied with a bow, but it’s still a gift.

Let me sleep
For when I sleep
I dream that you are here
You’re mine
And all my fears are left behind
I float on air
The nightingale sings gentle lullabys
So let me close my eyes

And sleep
Per chance to dream
So I can see the face I long to touch
To kiss
But only dreams can bring me this
So let the moon
Shine softly on the boy I long to see
And maybe when he dreams
He’ll dream of me

I’ll hide beneath the clouds
And whisper to the evening stars
They tell me love is just a dream away (dream away)
I’ll dream away

So let the moon
Shine softly on the boy I long to see
And maybe when he dreams
He’ll dream of me

people are often unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered; FORGIVE THEM ANYWAY.

if you are kind, people may accuse you of being selfish and having ulterior motives; BE KIND ANYWAY.

if you are successful you will win some false friends and some true enemies; SUCCEED ANYWAY.

if you are honest and frank, people may cheat you; BE HONEST ANYWAY.

what you spend years building, someone may try to destroy overnight; BUILD ANYWAY.

if you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous; BE HAPPY ANYWAY.

the good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow; DO GOOD ANYWAY.

give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough; GIVE THE WORLD THE BEST YOU HAVE ANYWAY.

you see in the final analysis, it’s between you and GOD; IT WAS NEVER BETWEEN YOU AND THEM ANYWAY.

==========================================================================      this was emailed to me by a friend…just wanted to share it. =)

Tuesday, August 12, 2003

You don’t have to say what you feel for me…

            I know it just by looking in your eyes.

You don’t have to remind me constantly…

            Somehow I know it’ll stay with you for all time.

You don’t have to ask me to look at you and feel your pain…

            Just like you, I’ve suffered that much too.

You don’t have to tell me you’re confused…

            I feel the same way too.

You don’t have to ask me what I feel…

            Like you, my eyes show everything.

You don’t have to explain your actions and words…

            Sometimes the mouth speaks but the heart is different.

Now, would you understand if I tell you I’m hurting???

Would you understand that I know what you’re feeling???

Would you understand if I find our situation confusing???

I need you to tell me that you’d stay…

            Maybe not literally because that would be the hardest thing to do.

Just stay within my reach…

            Stay within my grasp…

The more I see that being with you is not a possibility,

            The more confused my mind gets…

Logic tells me that you can’t say you love me yet be with another at the same time,

Emotions tell me that sometimes the heart gets deceived and makes faulty decisions.

Logic tells me to leave the two of you behind and get on with my life,

Emotions tell me to wait because in the end everything will turn out right.

Logic tells me that this is outright stupidity,

Emotions tell me that this is taking risk and holding on because you’ll never know when the tide will turn…